What a Month!

Guess what? I went on my interview on Monday for the substitute position...finally!!!!!!!!! It went really well and the principal who interviewed me even asked if she could keep my resumes! Fingers crossed!
Then later that night, my hubby's brother was taken to the hospital because he was pretty sick. My husband started to tear up and I told him not to worry. It probably wasn't as bad as his mother said because his mother tends to think the worst and panic. So, we prayed and called up some of our church family and my family to pray and spread the word. I don't know what we would do without the love and support of this extended family. They are all so amazing! So, he's okay now and we are happy and giving thanks to God.
Earlier this month, my husband had to go the doctor because of some personal health issues. I researched everything regarding his symptoms and beat the "specialist" to the diagnosis. (I have a bill for my husband! hahaha) So, he will be okay with medication and we were put at ease. This month has been a roller coaster. With health issues, remembering my grandparents on their birthdays (who are no longer here) and the clock ticking on my goals, I'm feeling a bit blah lately.
So, I hope to be working real soon. I've been faithfully working out and am seeing a difference. With a weekend wedding looming on the horizon I have to work out! Doesn't mean I won't eat at the Oyster Bar today with my sister and order the half order fried shrimp with fries! heeheehee So, my birthday is in exactly 18 days!!!! I am freaking out! I'm not where I thought I would be in my life at this point and I don't know why. Bad decisions? Rushed decisions? Not including God in those decisions. So, I'm trying to include him more. I'm trying to let go of the anger and resentment I feel with people undermining me, trying to manipulate me, control me and the decisions I make for myself and those I love. Trying to be an example and walk in the light. It's soooo hard. I had lunch today with people who had been and are at a job where people pray in the name of God to get what they want from him, acting like God is their genie. There I sit wearing my I heart Brownsville shirt and it's like I have cotton balls in my mouth. The guy who joined us for lunch is gay and I have no idea how to witness to him. So, I'm praying everyday that God will use me to reach out to others and share his love. Today I had an opportunity and even though I said little, I hope I didn't fail God. I fail myself enough.
The month is almost over and I still have much to do. But I live by the motto "We plan. God laughs." Because we don't consult his plans. It makes sense.
I am in his hands and I hope wherever he leads me, I will listen and follow, be willing to speak up and show his love.
“‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ declared the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future’” (Jeremiah 29:11). “This is good, and pleases God our Savior, who wants all men to be saved and to come to a knowledge of the truth” (1 Timothy 2:3-4).