God is Good!

God is good, so good! That's all for now. : )

Freaked out!!

I took my dad to the doctor today in McAllen. When he went in, I stayed out. There was an old lady who kept looking at me. She struck up a conversation with me and I could tell she was lonely. She started making her way over to sit next to me. I wanted to keep reading but told myself God put her there for a reason and I should humor her! I thought about what my Pastor Randy said sacrifice should be. "Sacrifice is not doing something I want to do so I can do something for someone else." Which is why I was taking my dad in the first place!Then the thought crossed my mind, where my church's technical director and friend, Ken, once told me that maybe the weekends that I serve are the messages that God is really trying to get through to me. (See, the thing about sacrifice was from a recent weekend where I do the PowerPoint for the four services the church has on the weekends.)
Anyway, she reminded me a bit of my grandma Gomez who I miss dearly and I do actually enjoy talking to older people. Such wisdom from a different time.
There we were talking about her life when she asked me about mine. She asked if I was married and had any kids. She then proceeded to tell me what was going to happen to me in my future. I won't divulge the details cause I'm rather freaked out!! She told me that God is good and brave and he always takes care of us. She said that when the things she told me do happen, that I'll remember her. I was in such awe by the things she said that I stopped wishing that my dad would call me in with him! Sometimes I'm still selfish like that. I have no idea if there was any truth to her words but I was fascinated by how much she seemed to know about me and my life. Who knows? God knows. I take comfort in Him and his plans for my life.
She was then called in to see the doctor, stood up and introduced herself and gave me a hug. What a morning! You never know who God will put in your path but be ready and accepting!

God is good!

I don't understand a lot of things but I do understand that God is good! Thank you Lord, for your love, forgiveness, and mercy. God is good and has always taken care of us. I need to serve him more and not be so selfish. God is good! : )

Looking forward to the afternoon with the hubby and all the things we're going to do together. God is good!

Baby Shower

Today I attended a baby shower. All I know is when we finally do get to that point in our lives, I am going to have an awesome shower. No little sandwiches. No cheesy games. And NO ONE will be wrapping anything, ANYTHING around my belly! So, it got me to thinking about the future. We are quickly approaching the time when we want to start a family. I just don't think I can bear the thought of having my children exposed to the negativity in my husband's family. They are mean, cruel and vile towards me without provocation. Do I really want to expose my children to this? The world is cruel enough without it existing in your own family. When they kiss me on the cheek I always think of Judas and his kiss to Jesus. The betrayal Jesus must have felt. The anger, hurt and pain, but HE had a world to save. HE forgave. That's why I'm not him. Nothing like I want to be. I can eventually forgive and always do. But when do you move past it all? It's not like they say sorry or ask for forgiveness. It's not like I always ask the Lord to forgive me and yet he still loves me. Despite my faults, flaws, sins, and own cruelty, HE is merciful. I'm at a crossroad in my life. Ever since my mother-in-law tried to poop on my 30th birthday I've kept my distance. I didn't let her ruin my day but enjoyed it very much with my hubby. But in the aftermath, I keep my distance and actually find that we have more peace in our life. Things seem better. As a Christian woman though, I'm torn. Please pray for us.

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I have been so blah since New Year's Eve. I got into this huge fight with my mom and we haven't spoken since. Which, if you know us then you know that's a really long time. So, hubby has been great. He bought me the wii fit with the newest games that aren't in stores yet. It arrived two days ago and I was wondering..is it possible to get shin splints from using the wii? haha Well, I do love it! Hes also been very attentive and has been very affectionate, encouraging, and thoughtful. So hes taking me out tonight and I'm looking forward to getting out of the house.
Right now, I'm freezing. The heat is not on and last night hubby wanted to sleep with the window open when temps reached the low 30s! I woke up and threw on some stuff and turned off the fan. Yes, the fan was on and blowing straight at our heads. *Note to self-do not go to bed with wet hair anymore!
So, I'm feeling better this a.m. then I have all week. I texted my friend and asked her to pray and broke down in tears. I must let go and let God. I feel distance and I'm going to work on bridging the gap because its easier to walk away then to get closer.
SIGH