11:22 a.m.

11:22 a.m. Phone rings. In H.E.B. See a 4 digit number and immediately recognize it as a B.I.S.D. number. "Ms. Moore?" "Yes?".............................lots of noise in my head.............................blah, blah, fingerprinting.....................I'M HIRED!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you Jesus! All the praise and glory belongs to God! Prayer answered. People looked at me as if I were crazy (I am!) with my perm-a-grin and tears streaming down my face!

My cup runneth over.

John Waller - While I'm Waiting Lyrics

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord

This has been my anthem song.

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28

What a Month!

Guess what? I went on my interview on Monday for the substitute position...finally!!!!!!!!! It went really well and the principal who interviewed me even asked if she could keep my resumes! Fingers crossed!
Then later that night, my hubby's brother was taken to the hospital because he was pretty sick. My husband started to tear up and I told him not to worry. It probably wasn't as bad as his mother said because his mother tends to think the worst and panic. So, we prayed and called up some of our church family and my family to pray and spread the word. I don't know what we would do without the love and support of this extended family. They are all so amazing! So, he's okay now and we are happy and giving thanks to God.
Earlier this month, my husband had to go the doctor because of some personal health issues. I researched everything regarding his symptoms and beat the "specialist" to the diagnosis. (I have a bill for my husband! hahaha) So, he will be okay with medication and we were put at ease. This month has been a roller coaster. With health issues, remembering my grandparents on their birthdays (who are no longer here) and the clock ticking on my goals, I'm feeling a bit blah lately.
So, I hope to be working real soon. I've been faithfully working out and am seeing a difference. With a weekend wedding looming on the horizon I have to work out! Doesn't mean I won't eat at the Oyster Bar today with my sister and order the half order fried shrimp with fries! heeheehee So, my birthday is in exactly 18 days!!!! I am freaking out! I'm not where I thought I would be in my life at this point and I don't know why. Bad decisions? Rushed decisions? Not including God in those decisions. So, I'm trying to include him more. I'm trying to let go of the anger and resentment I feel with people undermining me, trying to manipulate me, control me and the decisions I make for myself and those I love. Trying to be an example and walk in the light. It's soooo hard. I had lunch today with people who had been and are at a job where people pray in the name of God to get what they want from him, acting like God is their genie. There I sit wearing my I heart Brownsville shirt and it's like I have cotton balls in my mouth. The guy who joined us for lunch is gay and I have no idea how to witness to him. So, I'm praying everyday that God will use me to reach out to others and share his love. Today I had an opportunity and even though I said little, I hope I didn't fail God. I fail myself enough.
The month is almost over and I still have much to do. But I live by the motto "We plan. God laughs." Because we don't consult his plans. It makes sense.
I am in his hands and I hope wherever he leads me, I will listen and follow, be willing to speak up and show his love.
“‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ declared the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future’” (Jeremiah 29:11). “This is good, and pleases God our Savior, who wants all men to be saved and to come to a knowledge of the truth” (1 Timothy 2:3-4).

9/11

Remembrance: Today we remember those who perished on 9/11/01. I was getting ready to go into work at H.E.B. on that morning when my sister was screaming at me to come to the living room to see the t.v. When the second plane hit we stared in disbelief, knowing that it was no accident. My heart broke, and tears flowed as I saw the towers crumble. With people running for their life and not knowing what was going on in our country that morning, it seemed like I had weights stuck to my legs, could not move and did not want to leave home.
I left work early because I just could not focus. Many customers, including co-workers were so apathetic, that my heart broke. Having been in New York in 1998 and having family that lives there, including having my mom being born there....well, my heart was just broken by the devastation. You see, a part of me is still in the big apple. I fell in love with the city after attending a journalism conference at Columbia in '98. I've always dreamed of going back. In the mean time, my apartment is decorated throughout with pictures and items representing New York. My husband also fell in love the with the city when he went on a business trip with his dad, 5 years to the day that I went. I have pictures of the towers and he has pictures of ground zero. A very different experience.
So, today I remember.
I will never forget the images of people so desperate that they jumped out their windows. Did they know the towers were coming down? Did they think they might have a better chance of surviving if they jumped? I have no idea. And I have no idea what I would have done if that was me.
My thoughts are with those who have lost their loved ones, who perished and who were lost the day they died. We never know when it will be our time. Will we be ready?
I HEART NEW YORK.....and BROWNSVILLE too!
I will love You, O Lord, my strength. The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer; My God, my strength, in whom I will trust; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. (Ps 18.1-2)

Near drowning

So, I thought I would deviate from the job search talk to talk about a near drowning this past weekend. My husband Sergio and I went kayaking this past weekend and spent a lot of time throughout the weekend at the island. Unfortunately, we had an accident when his kayak tipped over and he almost drowned. It was the scariest, most terrifying moment of my life. I've been there when loved ones have died and I've been in a car accident, seen my mom get hit by a van, have rushed to the hospital for various family emergencies including saying my last good-byes.....but nothing, I mean nothing compares to the image of seeing your best friend, lover, and soul mate grasping for air. I stayed calm and tried my best to calm him down. To reassure him that we were going to be okay. Two different boats came by and helped him/us out at different times and the coast guard did a fly over.
So, it was a big learning experience. First, if we ever kayak again, it will be in a pool! Second, God is good. He brought others along at just the right time. Third, God is to be number one in our lives. I've been praying that God will take center stage in my husband's life and that his heart would be softened to Him. I guess sometimes it takes being flipped over in a kayak for God to get our attention. So each day is getting a little better. We are both still sore and sunburned. We have come together and are really loving each other and not taking anything for granted.
I think we are now better equipped through this experience to love God more, serve him more, and love others more...showing the world around us God's unfailing love. It is my hope and belief that God will use us to reach out to others more because of this experience. I love my husband and can't imagine the world without him. God has us here for a reason. I'm still finding my way but I pray everyday that God will use me however he sees fit and NOT how I see fit. If you are reading this and it is still fairly current then I ask your prayers for my husband. Thank you.
"I thank my God for my every remembrance of you...." Ph. 1:3

On shaky ground trying to stand tall

So, I woke up this morning and started to pray in bed. I turned on my radio feeling a bit discouraged and trying hard to cling to hope and my faith in God. The following song came on which I seem to be catching on the radio a lot lately. It must mean something, I'm sure!

Will I believe you when you say Your hand will guide my every way Will I receive the words You say Every moment of every day Well I will walk by faith Even when I cannot see because this broken road Prepares Your will for me Help me to RID my endless fears You've been so faithful for all my years With the one breath You make me new Your grace covers all I do yeah, yeah , yeah, yeah, ya well i will walk by faith even when i cannot see because this broken road prepares your will for me Well I'm broken- but I still see Your face Well You've spoken- pouring Your words of grace Well I will walk by faith Even when I cannot see Well because this broken road Prepares Your will for me (Repeat) Well I will walk by faith Even when I cannot see Well because this broken road Prepares Your will for me Hallelujah, hallelu I will walk by faith, I will walk by faith, I will walk by faith I will walk by faith, I will walk by faith, I will walk by faith I will walk by faith, I will walk by faith, I will walk by faith I will walk by faith I will walk,I will walk Faith I will walk, I will walk by faith
Walk By Faith Lyrics
Artist(Band):Jeremy Camp

I started to cry. Tears flowed and I felt safe and unsure all at the same time. You see, God has always provided for us and we've never wanted for anything...even a few weeks ago when we lived off of pasta for a whole week! I used every combination I could think of but by the weekend the hubby was grouchy and sick of it. The Lord provided. Always does and always will. So, I asked my love to pray before he rushed out this morning and it was one of the most beautiful prayers. Last night while beginning to feel unsteady, I heard Jesse Duplantis say "Before you ever had a problem, God had an answer!" He went on to say that God didn't take Eve out of Adam's foot, but out of his side so that man and woman, husband and wife could stand side by side, together. My husband is standing side by side with me. And I know others are praying for me and God's will and His alone for my life.
I'm expecting miracles. God is going to use me for his purpose and not my own. That's a hard one but I know his plans and purpose for my life are greater than anything I could think of on my own. And I've got a wild imagination! So, thank you God. Thank you Lord for blessings I can not see. For miracles on their way. For using me for your purpose and not my own.

"Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken." Ecclesiastes 4:12